Let me start of by saying that I feel better. I took Friday and Saturday and did only what needed to be done to take care of both humans and cats in the house and I relaxed. I ate crap, watched Orange is the New Black (almost done, I’m on the last season), reassessed some things, played with the cats, and read my book. Feeling better today is a good end to the week.
A lot of last week was feeling kind of crappy. But there were some good things.
I got an excellent mid-year review. I mean, glowing. I thought I was doing well, but apparently I’m doing better than well. It’s nice to hear that my managers – both current and former – think that I’m doing a really good job. It’s nice getting feedback, especially when it’s that good. We pulled out a few things for me to work on going forward, but really those things were things that they want me to take on.
After a few days of eating crap, I was still logging food, and I realized that by and large I’m still in the ballpark of my calorie goal. Macros are all over the place, but I can’t seem to get the hang of eating to macros. I have a plan to get back to working out. I just need to make time for it like I make time for everything else.
One thing I realized is that I need to reassess my priorities. Figure out what things really matter to me – staying healthy; getting fit; spending time with Mike, friends, and family (in small doses); progress on… projects, for lack of a better word. I know where I want to be. I just have to figure out how to get there and work to make it happen.
It’s slow progress. This isn’t a sprint, nothing is. It’s a long, slog marathon. I want to be able to look back at this moment five years from now and marvel at everything that I’ve accomplished. I just need the motivation and to keep the motivation. Not that there won’t be days that I don’t want to do anything.
I think I’ve got my mojo back.