What did I get myself into?

I finally finished the last few episodes of Outlander that’s on Netflix. So what did I do? Started Bridgerton. Everyone raved about it for so many months, and I needed something to watch while I did other things like get my planner in order for the next week and the next month. Meanwhile, one of my cats is completely in my face. He wants to lay on the desk, which is fine, except he takes after my grandfather and just pushes everything out of his way. He knocks everything over, he spills anything liquid in his path, and generally makes a nuisance of himself. I get mad, toss him off of the desk, then feel bad, lure him back over so I can make amends, and then the whole thing starts all over again. If it were one of the others, I wouldn’t feel as bad, but he’s old, and I want him to get all the love that he wants in the time that he has left. But I learned the hard way this year that just because they’re young, they’re not protected from tragedy. So yeah, since losing Watson and Peeps this year, we rarely deny any of the cats cuddle time.

So here I am, watching Bridgerton, with a cat taking up valuable real estate on the desk, with his head on my hand. My keyboard is at a strange angle, and my Diet Coke is totally blocked in.

Yesterday was a good day. I got a lot done, got a really good workout in, had lunch with a friend and caught up with some old employees, got some old labs faxed to the new doctor, took a nap, cleaned up the house, helped Mike cook dinner, and finally finished The Mandalorian. Mike got me a Lego Darth Vader bust for my birthday earlier this week, and I got a good chunk of it put together. I started to get frustrated, so Mike made me put it away to finish it later this weekend.

We’re almost halfway through the year, and there have been a lot of good things, and also a fair share of bad. Live music is back, and we’ve got tickets to three shows in the second half of the year.

Work has been pretty good recently. Just the normal drivel. People have calmed down drastically in the last few weeks. I have to say, it’s wonderful not having to be the mask police all day every day. I’m starting to itch to get out of there, though. I feel as if I’ve put in my time – I did what everyone told me I needed to do, which was get some management experience. I’ve done that. The second half of this year is going to be hitting the job boards, hard, and using the contacts that I have to try to find something new, something that will challenge me and will push me further and to be better.

It’s not that I get bored with jobs easily, or that I like to bounce around hell, I spent six and a half years at the last lab I worked at. But I want to be challenged. I want a job that’s going to push me to be better, going to test me. I don’t like it when I’m not pushed. I think there’s a lot of people in this world that are content with the standard quo, but I’m not one of those people. I want to grow, to change. To see how far I can go.

As Lin Manuel-Miranda said in the musical Hamilton, I will never be satisfied.

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