After my revelations the other day, I stated to take a big, can’t miss it step back from a number of things. People, things, events. And taken an even bigger step back towards the people and things that actually matter. I seem to fall into these traps where I expend my energy on the wrong things. The wrong people. The wrong situations. (I feel like a Barenaked Ladies song.)
So you know what? Fuck it.
I’m not going to let people use me or walk all over me. I’ve spent the last few days reevaluating some things (I feel like I do this a lot, my apologies), really thinking about things. I don’t always like the person that I’ve become. So I’m going to try harder and be better. Not just for me, but for all of the people that deserve it. Because there’s a lot of people in my life that don’t deserve it.
In other news anyone know a good Cricut tutorial? I’m starting to play with mine, but I can’t quite figure it out. I need to sit down and watch some YouTube videos and sort it out. I want to make stickers! Maybe I need to do something easier to start with, like a t-shirt that says “Time to do some sketchy shit” on it. That’s not a bad idea. I could make a matching one for Fuzz since he’s always up to some sketchy shit.
I just need to re-find me. Relearn what I stand for and what I won’t put up with. Relearn what it means to be me. I almost feel like I need to put everything else on hold until I get myself sorted. I’ve danced around it a few times, but I feel like I’ve fallen down a rabbit hole, and it’s not good for my mental health.