It's official, it's done. I finally got the offer letter. Hallelujah, praise the FSM. No more of this shuttling from store to store. I now have the ability to rely on where I'm going to be from week to week. The whole process has been very anxiety-laden. I was told that all of this was… Continue reading I finally got the letter
I have many thoughts. But I'm not really sure what they are. Does that make sense? I have all of these thoughts and feelings, but I can't really define any of them. One major irritant is that I spent 10 hours (while travelling) doing all of these modules for a food safety exam. I took… Continue reading I have many thoughts
Had orientation today. We scheduled it before my first day while I'm still at Big Box Hardware Store so I can just jump in and get going when my first day comes. I had the first realization that - holy shit, I'm management - today. In my orientation were two younger kids, both there to… Continue reading My anxiety is how I know I’m alive
Both interviews today went really well. The one this morning was the big one - the final interview for a position I've been interviewing for for two months. Ultimately, we decided (mutually), that the position I was interviewing for wasn't a good fit yet. I needed some experience at a slightly lower level and then… Continue reading I think I may have done it
About a week ago my Big Box Store Boss came to and said a position was opening up that they wanted me to apply for. I had worked for this same company (different store) doing this job while I was in college ten years ago. Granted, in ten years things have changed, but I was… Continue reading When it rains it pours, apparently.
I mentioned in a previous post that a friend gave me some cash as a bridal party gift to spend on an Erin Condren planner and accessories. I've been using it about two months now, and I cannot say how much more organized I am. I had thought that between the calendar app on my… Continue reading I know, I’ve been around a lot this week. I wouldn’t get used to it.
I haven't heard anything back from the job last week, and I'm trying not to go into panic mode. Last time it took a week to get back to me, and the guy I interviewed with did say that he was moving me onto the next stage. Still, the panic is creeping in. I'm still… Continue reading A little of this, a little of that, and a few updates
I have an interview tomorrow. A big one. This is one of the last hurdles to clear for the position. And I'm utterly terrified. I know, academically, that it's my anxiety and two years of a combination of hearing nothing back and thanks but no thanks emails talking, but I can't help it. I'm literally… Continue reading I’m quite literally a bundle of nerves
As the title says, is it possible to have an episode - that is, the symptoms of an episode - without actually having an episode? I'm angry, irritable, irrational, moody, cynical, unimpressed by things that should thrill me (*cough cough Endgame cough cough*). But my mood itself feels fine. Or mostly fine, at least. I… Continue reading Is it possible to be having an episode without having an episode? Oh, and I may be going through menopause at 36. Or have lupus. But it’s never lupus.
There's been a lot of posts on Facebook and Instagram recently (at least on the pages that I follow, which to be fair there's more than a few about mental health) about anxiety and how it doesn't look like a lot of people expect it to. Even when I first got the "official" anxiety diagnosis… Continue reading Anxiety lies